心痛。。

好久没写日记了。。就是因为日子开心了，觉得不需要写了。。可是现在，又被伤害，心好痛。。当初选择了他，就是因为，他对我超好。觉得可以托付终 身， 结果却这样。唉。。他居然带着其他女生。还欺骗我，我还原谅他，要求他回到我身边。可是，他却不要。原本我要跟他分了，但是，他不要。他挽回。之后，我决 定好好对待他，他却继续背叛我，骗我。但我还是想跟他在一起。唉。。朋友们都说我笨。可是我就是笨！是输不起？还是真地爱上了？

每次出去，都想起他。我们曾经踏过了许多地方。无论我到了哪里，都想起我们以前快乐的日子。唉。。为什么男人变心可以那么快？心痛啊。。他对我也好残忍。。连朋友都没得做。。他家人封锁了给他的经济资助。。他怨我，说我害他。说我中伤他。我真冤枉啊。。

我累了。。

纠缠了一两个星期，知道我没得选择，只好逼自己放开。我很想跟他一起，但是没得选。唉。。我爱他。。又如何？是因为习惯？还是，输不起？还是真的爱上了？他当初说好的幸福呢？真的能够在一刹那变了心？

说好的幸福呢？

你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一意一心数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯我还爱你了
但你断断续续唱着歌假作没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一意一心数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒在旋转着要怎么停呢

6 Nov 2009

hi, this is my first story on my first page of blog.. first time to use this.. i'm too sad liao.. no way to release my feeling..
still remember vividly, i know him since july 2008. we used to be together to go for pool, yamcha, dinner, watch movies.. he called me everynite.. for few hours! sometimes, we talked until 5.30am! then, i got to wake up on next day and work.. he called me during lunch hour, dinner time.. "chasing" me.. treat me very nice..
when gillian came back, she told me tat jason is a good guy.. so, i accepted him.. from the beginning, i knew that he is good, at least he treat me very very good. b4 i went to HK 2008, he bought me coats, gave me money.. when i had problems, he accompanied me.. why? because he said he love me..
all the while, i treat him bad.. the way i love him is wrong.. i always "kek" him... i actually wanted him to be aware why i kek him.. i wanted him to getting better and better.. but, end up, he cant stand for this kind of "talking style" already..
when i was in sarawak, he met a girl.. by mid of sept.. they started dating.. he brought her back to the places we stayed together...
how sad am i? he did a lot for me to make me love him, and now, he did this to make me sad.. coz of her, he wants to dump me.. although tat girl walk out, and let us be together, but he choose to by alone..
i told him, i will change my style.. for him... haiz... i'm really sad.. sad until cried everyday.. when i knew tat he got no place to stay, i let him to stay with me.. although his heart is not with me.. end up, this is my return.. i'm really sad.. very very sad.. hope tat there is an accident to me, and i got memory lost... haiz....