秘密

有些事在我心里被隐藏了许久 心里在想，这样的日子，可以过多久 这次是真的了吗？ 好烦。。
我写这个部落格也只是写出自己的感觉而已 没人看 没人读 抒发自己的情绪而已
好烦好烦

sick..

i'm sick.. sick everymonth.. very sien le.. and, i really confused.. i didnt really face my own problem for more than one month already.. haiz.. he is staying at my house for 2 months.. i can see that he is trying to be good to me.. being a guai guai zai.. staying at home... but, is he with true heart? if i dont accept another guy and waiting for him, what will happen in my future? what should i do? he still remember that i like to eat fish porridge.. haiz.. he understand me deeply.. haiz.. and i used to stay with him already.. haiz.. what can i do.. what should i do.. i like another guy also.. at least, feel good to be with him.. but i dont feel good if compared with J.. haiz.. maybe i used to have that kind of life liao lol.. haiz.. sien arh!!!!
my works also piss me off.. haiz!! beh tahan!

Confused..

It's 9 January 2010 today!! Happy new year.. Having new life recently.. I can think positively now dy.. At least, trying... Who I should choose?? Both of them are good but one of them betrayed me.. Sad.. But, how bout the new one? Will he betray me one day layer??? I am scared... Sad too.. Having my single life nom.. Doing part time measurement, clubbing, karaoke, shopping... A lot.. My old life.. He doesn't really control me dy.. Although we stay together, still like tat only... Haiz...