Confused..

It's 9 January 2010 today!! Happy new year.. Having new life recently.. I can think positively now dy.. At least, trying... Who I should choose?? Both of them are good but one of them betrayed me.. Sad.. But, how bout the new one? Will he betray me one day layer??? I am scared... Sad too.. Having my single life nom.. Doing part time measurement, clubbing, karaoke, shopping... A lot.. My old life.. He doesn't really control me dy.. Although we stay together, still like tat only... Haiz...